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kilxarai
15 January 2017 @ 11:26 pm
I knew it was too good to be true
 
 
Current Mood: betrayed
Current Music: Tegoshi Yuya - Encore
 
 
kilxarai
19 August 2015 @ 11:29 pm
I'm sorry I kept you awake last night. I didn't expect you would reply. And I don't know when else to tell you since you're asleep when I'm awake, and I'm asleep when you're awake. I really don't want this 12 hour difference to be a hindrance...

But until then, I'll wait quietly...
 
 
Current Mood: apologetic
Current Music: Arctic Monkeys - I Wanna Be Yours
 
 
kilxarai
15 May 2015 @ 09:12 pm
"Ayah, rajin tak amik Ya dari hostel?"
"Kenapa tak balik macam biasa je?"
"hmm :( Takde mood la nak naik train hari ni..."
"Jauh laah"
"Hm, ok. Tapi Ya balik malam sikit lah. Now panas sangat lah nak jalan pergi bus station"
"Ye lahh. Lagi 40 minit ayah sampai"

ooops. hiks hiks. okay~

Yes, that was unintentional. I just wanted to tell that I'll be back late, in advance, so no one would worry or call me when I will be back, but then...

But anyway, that was a little camouflaged because it's not all that, idk, lovely sappy sweet story or whatever. Turns out that my dad coincidentally needs to go to Serdang, which is quite 15 minutes apart from Cyberjaya, so yeah. :/

On the other note, mum's car is back after some light years months stranded at the workshop. But it is still immovable. The road tax died. Hm.
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Current Mood: drunkdrunk
Current Music: KAT-TUN - Bless
 
 
kilxarai
02 April 2015 @ 10:45 pm
Initially it was bearable, having exams every 2 weeks.

But then again, every month, exams will always, always fall on the time I'm having pms. It's not easy dealing with feelings and books at the same time.

Hm, I wonder how it feels like to be in a coma state
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Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: My Chemical Romance - This Is How I Disappear
 
 
kilxarai
29 January 2015 @ 02:07 am
Hey pretty girl, what's your name? What's your number?

I'm having my exams on Friday, and here I am, worrying about my unfinished revision. *cries*

Just felt like crapping around.
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Current Mood: PMS
Current Music: 5 Seconds of Summer - I Can't Remember
 
 
 
kilxarai
21 December 2014 @ 05:41 pm
So last night I went swimming with my sisters.

I don't know how to swim, actually. *ashamed* But I could survive if you toss me into a swimming pool though. I know how to float and barely safely swim ashore, but I'd probably die if I'm thrown into a river. Or worse, the sea.

So yesterday, for some reason, I recalled a holiday I went, around 10 years ago, with my family, and my cousins and their families. We went to Melaka resort and rented a bungalow. I remembered swimming with my closest cousin, Yanie, in the pool behind the house. She was using the swimming board (if that is what it is called) while I used the Mickey-mouse-inflatable armbands, the one you placed around your arms. We were swimming happily, and all of a sudden, Yanie accidentally let go of her board and so she pulled me into the water together. It happened too quickly and we sort of pushing each other into the water to avoid sinking.

Well, long story short, while I was drowning, I saw my dad dived in and saved me.♡

So I dragged my sisters into the swimming pool at around 9pm, and asked them to teach me how to swim. They went for swimming classes. I didn't, because since that incident, I pledged to myself not to swim anymore. But as years go by, I think it is quite uncool not to know how to swim. Plus, it would be more fun if I could swim in the sea should I go to the beaches someday. Or lakes. Or rivers. Or swimming pool. One thing for sure, I could save myself from drowning.
 
 
Current Location: Memory lane
Current Mood: reminiscing
Current Music: My Chemical Romance - Destroya
 
 
kilxarai
06 November 2014 @ 07:54 am
Have you ever longed for her,
On nights that go on and on for now,
Her face is all a blur,
Like a memory kept too long

Have you ever tried to recall her,
On weary days that you gone through,
Her words are now a murmur,
Like a diary long forgotten

Have you ever reached for her,
On nights that drove you to a corner,
Her warmth by now is over,
Like a fire put out during winter


Just something Kimi and I made together ♡
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Current Mood: Joy
Current Music: Final Fantasy - To Zanarkand
 
 
kilxarai
12 October 2014 @ 11:31 pm
Maybe it's true that you'll work your ass off for something. And when you finally have your hands on it, you'd heave a sigh of relief and smile.

You'd also celebrate silently, put it aside and let it rot with your other achievements.

You might say you're not, but in fact, you are. And you'd deny it.

And if you were to defend yourself, you'd trace back my words.

But what I uttered might not be what I meant. They're just the right things to say at the moment.

Then I don't know what I should believe in now.

Not my words, and never yours.


Trying to be poetic haha.
#failedpoem
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Current Location: Ludibrium - Clocktower
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: McFly - Bubble Wrap
 
 
kilxarai
25 September 2014 @ 01:32 am
Hi there ^^

I've been not quite busy, and there's nothing much going on my life nowadays. I mean, it's pretty much the same, and nothing interesting happened lately. If there is, then maybe it's not worth mentioning.

But I feel a strong urge to post something. To write about something. But currently, there's too much on my mind that I don't know which topic to pick and talk about.

Or maybe there is...?Collapse )

Just so that it fits the title... *points to subject*
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Scratches head. Actually, I couldn't find the picture that made me fall in love with typography, but it was something like this. Note the design, not the saying.


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Found it! And there's pretty Inoo-chan, with his ever-so-sexy lips!


See? White with hints of black. Just my type of art. And I strongly think that Loki said the above, because of the line "In the end, you will always kneel". But I couldn't be too sure. Anyway, lately, there isn't much typography that I'm fond of. Maybe I set my expectations up too high, so nothing ever comes out right. /shrug

Oh look! It's 25th September! Happy birthday Hatake Kakashi~
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Current Location: El Nath Desolate Moor
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: KAT-TUN - Fire and Ice
 
 
kilxarai
16 September 2014 @ 08:30 pm
Yabu ~ng

Yabu peek-a-boo
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Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: yamada ryosuke - mystery virgin